话说回家乡工作后，
发现这里的同事比较害羞，
对于在众人面前表演或讲解都很容易造成拖拉。
在这样的环境里，
眼看再拖拉也不是办法，
只好硬着头皮、带着冷手冷脚完成任务。
原来当毫无选择的时候，
just do it 就是唯一办法。
最近有两个发生让我和爸爸‘碰’，
第一是当我听到某处有水的声音时，
转头直接问爸爸是什么声音，
爸爸一开口就说不懂你妈妈又忘记关水了？
顿时，停住，这样的意识形态多牢固啊。
间接自己走去看，原来水的来源来自没盖住的洗衣机。
第二是由于爸爸是典型的害羞+ 被动+好好先生，
所以那天会不好意思吃饭。
平常的我都会为了爸爸的犹豫不决或说东答西而不爽，
有一种“为什么这样子““替爸爸不值” 的情绪而产生负面情绪，
然后再加在爸爸身上。
当下，顿住，还要继续这样的轮回？
我有在爸爸立场想吗？爸爸的原生家庭让爸爸变成这样的性格，我看到吗？
2013年10月8日星期二
2013年9月16日星期一
胡言乱语
看了蒋勳的《孤独六讲》和《生活10讲》后，
了解了儒家对我们,尤其海外华人子弟的影响如此根深蒂固,
因此东方人的社会意识形态较西方人强。
它不好不坏，可以成规范我们的行为,也可以扼杀我们的思维。
不可质疑的条例会扭曲个人的思想。
人生的意义何在？
成就伟大事业？
当有人溺水时，若跳下水为了完成＂牺牲性命成就伟大，流芳百世＂ ，这思想就危险了．
若真如此，那么没有意义的人生就不是人生？
自然界告诉我，没人爱的野草不管被铲除多少次，还依然展现它的生命力。
野草的生存意义就是被人铲除？
人的存在为了什么？
别人可以告诉我们人生的意义，
但若这觉性不是自觉，
它只是表面上的面具。
在儒家的文化里，我们都在支配着群体的需求。
若与众不同，很容易被排挤。
难道大家一定要有相同的想法才会和谐吗？
未必也，妙赞师父曾经说和合是彼此拥有不同看法却愿意听对方想法并且尊重。
在这样的环境，如何保此孤独的思考呢？
看着成功的人士，从一开始被讥笑到被仰慕，
过程是一样但周遭的反应却不一样。
每一个人都对每一个人的行为持有不同的想法，
我在得到政府职位时深刻感受到。
首先听到的想法都为我感到可惜，
我自己也感到可惜，
之后有部分人说我很幸运。
原来，别人对自身的遭遇怎么想是毫无关系。
最重要是自己承担自己所做所为。
书里也写到，当每个人能保此孤独思想时，
这世界就会和平。
因为大家都能独立思考，
不会随着浪波。
近期在观看的是若我的行为（不害人害己）不被鼓励，
我就没有动力去做吗？
到底我做为了什么？是得到别人的青睐吗？
每次失败时，都会觉得沮丧，想哭。
发觉原来自己太急躁了。
哭只是无法面对或逃避事实的反应而已。。。。
认真的胡言乱语完毕。。。
自然界告诉我，没人爱的野草不管被铲除多少次，还依然展现它的生命力。
野草的生存意义就是被人铲除？
人的存在为了什么？
别人可以告诉我们人生的意义，
但若这觉性不是自觉，
它只是表面上的面具。
在儒家的文化里，我们都在支配着群体的需求。
若与众不同，很容易被排挤。
难道大家一定要有相同的想法才会和谐吗？
未必也，妙赞师父曾经说和合是彼此拥有不同看法却愿意听对方想法并且尊重。
在这样的环境，如何保此孤独的思考呢？
看着成功的人士，从一开始被讥笑到被仰慕，
过程是一样但周遭的反应却不一样。
每一个人都对每一个人的行为持有不同的想法，
我在得到政府职位时深刻感受到。
首先听到的想法都为我感到可惜，
我自己也感到可惜，
之后有部分人说我很幸运。
原来，别人对自身的遭遇怎么想是毫无关系。
最重要是自己承担自己所做所为。
书里也写到，当每个人能保此孤独思想时，
这世界就会和平。
因为大家都能独立思考，
不会随着浪波。
近期在观看的是若我的行为（不害人害己）不被鼓励，
我就没有动力去做吗？
到底我做为了什么？是得到别人的青睐吗？
每次失败时，都会觉得沮丧，想哭。
发觉原来自己太急躁了。
哭只是无法面对或逃避事实的反应而已。。。。
认真的胡言乱语完毕。。。
2013年9月2日星期一
one day retreat
Lazy mind is when you are in good situation.
Feel bored is when you want something and you don't get it.
Determination of just do it is try mind. keep trying and trying.
Practice, practice and practice.
When you want calm mind, you wont get it.
When you want sleep, you cant sleep.
Meditation is a technique for you to find your trueself,
only you can found it.
Feel bored is when you want something and you don't get it.
Determination of just do it is try mind. keep trying and trying.
Practice, practice and practice.
When you want calm mind, you wont get it.
When you want sleep, you cant sleep.
Meditation is a technique for you to find your trueself,
only you can found it.
2013年7月14日星期日
The teaching of Zen Master Su Bong
Article 13. Why Do You Make Correct, Not Correct
August 1993
If you return to before thinking, you are the universe and universe is you. What does that mean? The sky never said,"I am sky." The sun never said,"I am bright." The air never said, "Human beings, I am air and you need me." The dog never said," Human beings, call me dog and I say woof, woof." That's because the sun, the moon, the mountain, the river, and even the dog, only help all beings.
The sun never makes this teaching: "Today, I am only shining on this part of the world because these people like me." The air never said. "Ah, today, white people, you can breathe me, but black people, you cannot breathe me." The water never said," Human beings, if you're using, you must pay." Only human beings said,"If you use water, you must pay." That's because this universe is all before thinking. The sun, the moon, the river, the mountain and the tree have no opinions, have no conditions and don't keep their situations. If you return to before thinking, then there is no name, no form, no condition and no word. You have no condition, no opinion, no situation, but anything that just appears is the truth. If you return to before thinking, then you are universe, universe is you.
This is because the universe never holds anything, but only follow situation. We use so much of our condition, so this ozone has a hole. But this ozone doesn't think about that as being good or bad. It doesn't think about human beings, "Why you make a hole on me?" Only a hole appeared. Then human beings have suffering.
Now in Switzerland, Germany and Poland, you cannot go out into the sun between the hours of 3pm and 5pm. Can you imagine? Then what would you do? Soon this world and earth disappear, then where would you go? What would you do?
The sun, the moon and the sky don't care about anybody. But the sun, the sky, the moon, the mountain and the river do their jobs, and they do their jobs without hindrance because they have no likes and dislikes, have no correct or incorrect.
Taken from- Wake Up: What Am I? book
August 1993
If you return to before thinking, you are the universe and universe is you. What does that mean? The sky never said,"I am sky." The sun never said,"I am bright." The air never said, "Human beings, I am air and you need me." The dog never said," Human beings, call me dog and I say woof, woof." That's because the sun, the moon, the mountain, the river, and even the dog, only help all beings.
The sun never makes this teaching: "Today, I am only shining on this part of the world because these people like me." The air never said. "Ah, today, white people, you can breathe me, but black people, you cannot breathe me." The water never said," Human beings, if you're using, you must pay." Only human beings said,"If you use water, you must pay." That's because this universe is all before thinking. The sun, the moon, the river, the mountain and the tree have no opinions, have no conditions and don't keep their situations. If you return to before thinking, then there is no name, no form, no condition and no word. You have no condition, no opinion, no situation, but anything that just appears is the truth. If you return to before thinking, then you are universe, universe is you.
This is because the universe never holds anything, but only follow situation. We use so much of our condition, so this ozone has a hole. But this ozone doesn't think about that as being good or bad. It doesn't think about human beings, "Why you make a hole on me?" Only a hole appeared. Then human beings have suffering.
Now in Switzerland, Germany and Poland, you cannot go out into the sun between the hours of 3pm and 5pm. Can you imagine? Then what would you do? Soon this world and earth disappear, then where would you go? What would you do?
The sun, the moon and the sky don't care about anybody. But the sun, the sky, the moon, the mountain and the river do their jobs, and they do their jobs without hindrance because they have no likes and dislikes, have no correct or incorrect.
Taken from- Wake Up: What Am I? book
2013年7月7日星期日
2013年6月9日星期日
笼子、解放
我以为只要坚强, 自我感觉快乐, 我就能度过这一切。我以为把它收在心里,它就不会跳出来。
因为朋友的一句话，把我从那笼子拉出来，让我看到自己的痛苦。眼泪在眼眶打滚，好强的忍着。
在这样的环境，别人伸出绳子，我把它绑在脚踝，一瘸一拐的步行，我却觉得这样很好，这样的步态是正确的。每当别人问起，你好吗，我总是说好呀，那里不好。我把选择缩小了，把麻烦看大了。感谢我的四个朋友，让我知道其实我有选择。不耻下问是好的，但要选对人。
我一直把自己当超人，和别人诉苦很丢脸，也可能增加别人烦恼。所以找对人很重要。能让你舒服的、愿意聆听的、同理心的，就是那个人了。
再度重看《生命不可重来》舞台剧。
生命的无价，只有在清醒的时候。
只有活着，才有机会。
生命是别人成就的。
因为朋友的一句话，把我从那笼子拉出来，让我看到自己的痛苦。眼泪在眼眶打滚，好强的忍着。
在这样的环境，别人伸出绳子，我把它绑在脚踝，一瘸一拐的步行，我却觉得这样很好，这样的步态是正确的。每当别人问起，你好吗，我总是说好呀，那里不好。我把选择缩小了，把麻烦看大了。感谢我的四个朋友，让我知道其实我有选择。不耻下问是好的，但要选对人。
我一直把自己当超人，和别人诉苦很丢脸，也可能增加别人烦恼。所以找对人很重要。能让你舒服的、愿意聆听的、同理心的，就是那个人了。
再度重看《生命不可重来》舞台剧。
生命的无价，只有在清醒的时候。
只有活着，才有机会。
生命是别人成就的。
人生的路不长不短，都是自己一步一步走过。
路途有遮阳伞、绿草，舒服多了！
累了，休息吧！
细想谁、哪里、什么、几时、为什么、如何。
适时把垃圾丢一丢。
路途更轻松~
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